lately, i feel like peoples moods have been a little down =/ including my own, i suppose.. i've finally gotten to the point where i feel i can start looking for a job, and though i am pretty scared and nervous about it, and don't even have full confidence in myself yet, i just keep telling myself i have to fake 'til i make it... i guess i'll just pretend i'm a normal person with no issues and just see how that goes, ha!! i'm picky as hell when looking for a job, though.. i'm a crappy employee when i don't like my job, so i have to pick and choose where i'd be comfortable working while actually enjoying whatever i'm doing.. man, i'm such a pain in my ass! anyway, jamie's been looking for a job, too, and i hate it for her that she hasn't found one yet =/ she had a shitass day today and i felt the need to try to help and pick her up.. again, i always like helping other people more than trying to help myself, lol.. aye me, i'll never get to college and work towards what i actually want to do! wah wah wahhh, right? anyway, something that came up today was 'karma'.. "well i'm about ready for karma to come around!" -in jamie's words while on the phone with her sister... now this 'karma' lady, she really is a bitch and all, but damn if she works on her own time, ya know? sometimes life just sucks.. you have good days and bad days.. but all you can really do is live them one by one. karma will come around whenever she pleases, she's just one more thing you have absolutely no control over... it's interesting to me how much i keep realizing that the best thing to do is always look out for number one. work on yourself. be happy and things will fall into place... it is what it is.
while we're bitching :) ..i guess i'll update y'all on the 'guy front' ...which doesn't effing exist. everybody knows i'm fine being single, but i feel like i want some guy to just show up and make me want to be better.. make me want to take action and be a better person, be more confident and happy, etc etc... so where are you at tall guy with a big truck who likes sports and hunting/fishing?!? ha ;) ..maybe that's just an excuse for me to sit and wait for something to happen instead of get up and make my life.. ay yi yi! katie katie kaite...
so.. holy banana sandwich! new favorite nail polish! it's called "rage" by orly.. and it looks like liquid super shimmery rose gold.. it almost has a pink tint to it, which you don't really get from the picture.. i don't even know, it's just awesome, i love it! haha!! :D ...and no, those aren't my nails, i just google image searched :)
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