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i almost managed to make it through february without a single post! oh noes! ha.. :)

to say the absolute least, a lot has been going on lately... i've had just about every possible emotion running through my head at all times, and i can't seem to hold on to any of the good, positive feelings. welcome to depression. i've been struggling a lot with my anxiety for the past month or so, and it's pretty much consumed me. i get lost in thoughts and worries about the past, the now, and the future. what am i doing? what do i want? am i doing the right thing? it's been pretty much impossible to shut my wondering mind up and relax- enter sleep. lots of it. which means dreams. lots of crazy dreams! which i do love.. recently, i have had a few violent dreams, which basically shows that i'm struggling with control and power in my waking life. ding ding ding! enter faith. lots of it. haha :) i have to know, trust and believe that 'this, too, shall pass', so i suppose that's the main thing i've been working on... i'll have to update soon when i have something more up beat to write about.. :)

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7