...a brand new blogger.

so just now, 10 minutes ago, while listening to an insanely amazing thunderstorm going on outside, i decided i'd start myself a blog. so here goes :)

i guess first, i'll just tell you a little (maybe a lot?) about myself.. my name's katie, that's me in that picture over there >> and i'll start by saying that i don't usually capitalize letters 'cause i think lowercase letters are prettier :) i'm not a big fan of a single period to end a sentence, and i use smiley faces a lot... i like to think of myself as a true southern belle :) i like to get dressed up, go shopping, get my nails done, but i also love staying at home all day on a saturday to watch SEC football or go out to BFE and play with guns. i'm really into sports, my daddy raised me that way :) ..i'm a red and black blooded georgia bulldog football fan, but i just love to watch football in general. i prefer college football over the NFL, but i root for peyton manning and the colts on sundays. i like watching UFC, college basketball, braves baseball and i wouldn't be southern if i didn't watch nascar here and there :) i'm also an intense fan of the discovery channel show 'deadliest catch', you have no idea how interested somebody can be in bering sea crab fishermen! i mean really, i'm an admin on a deadliest catch fansite! ha!

i have a 16 month old american cocker spaniel named bailey jane and she is my absolute heart! i adore her! she's my little blond sweetheart and she loves everybody she meets! i guess those are all interests of mine, so here's a little about myself... i'm honest to a fault and like to think i'm pretty intuitive. i have generalized anxiety disorder, which basically means i worry too much, stress too much, and get anxious over just about anything. a little over a year ago (may '09) i was in wal-mart picking up a few things and suddenly started having a panic attack and wanted to get the hell out of there! i got scared that i was gonna be sick and walked straight out to my car and drove home.. i didn't leave my house for a good three months after that. hello agoraphobia! basically, i had some crazy fear of being in public... say you're scared shitless of heights and someone forces you up to the top of the empire state building and wants you to bungee jump off it - that's about how i felt (and sometimes still do feel) every time i had to leave my house to go anywhere for any reason. i ended up finding the sweetest and best therapist ever to help me learn what the hell was going on in my head and start working on cognitive behavioral therapy to overcome the agoraphobia... so it's been a year and i'm just starting to get out on my own again, and it feels freakin' great! it's nice to hang out with my friends again and go to the mall and whatnot... so now i just have to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life! after going through what i've been through, i'm thinking i'd like to be some kind of therapist so i can help other people who struggle with things i have.. for now, i guess i'll just write it all down (errr, type it all up?) as i go :)